In The Worst Mood Ever

Okay so this is going to be a rant seeing as I am sitting at my computer at 1:30 AM with a bloody bandage on my hand. So I get home from kareoke and I go around back to see if can clear some snow off my car so it won't get too wet inside tomorrow. I find that the plastic has ripped and there's a giant pile of snow in my back seat and that the interior lights are on because apparently my passenger side door wont properly close due to the crash. Then I look and I find that my trunk is open...actually open. hmmm. so i start clearing snow off my roof where it has bubbled up over the sun roof and I impale my palm on my broken off antenna putting a huge gash in my hand which is now swathed in a giant bandage to try and stop the profuse bleeding. I think I am going to cry. Why is this shit happening to me right now? Goddamnit. I need you here.

AMMENDMENT: Apparently the plastic did not rip. My roomates havwe informed me someone took a knife and decided to break into my car and snoop for stuff again...so that's why the trunk was open and my interior light was on.

Word On The Street

So ICBC has launched an uninsured driver claim against Mr. Mycock and he has 22 days to either accept, dispute, or do nothing. Now if he accepts or does nothing I get my claim. If he disputes then it's up to me to sue him. Please let him accept!! I don't want to turn this into a court battle. Luckily I could probably get my uncle or Biff's dad to represent me so it wouldn't be hard to get representation.

Ummm in other news, I have never been so happy in my life. I don't know how I lucked into this but I did. Everyday I wake up with a big stupid grin on my face. Feel free to groan single people.

Another gig at the Theatre got cancelled today...great. :(


Oh and i think I might buy one of these...

They Finally Did It Man....They Finally Killed My Car

So I'm not gonna post about the party cuz if you were there you already know and if you weren't you missed out big time. Umm yeah so in case anybody doesn't know I got into an accident this morning which was completely not my fault. I'm just really glad that everyone is alright and no one was hurt. I'm gonna miss my car when it's gone but I can only treat this as another thing that was meant to happen for a reason. The only consolation I can take is that I did enough to stop the back-hoe bucket from coming through the windshield. It pretty much would have killed me and Alleah or hurt us very severely. That scares me so much. We are all so lucky to be alive and healthy and that's what I'm going to focus on. I hope they take that guy for a ride man cuz he deserves to pay for what he did. I know it was a mistake but the fact that he just didn't seem to care at all if anyone was hurt just baffles me. Why didn't he apologize to me? He was completely at fault...why did he not say he was sorry? What kind of person doesn't apologize for putting the lives of my friends in jeopardy? Thank you big time to Kylan's parents for helping me out and getting me back into drivable conditon. Happy Brithday Ky!! 21 is looking fine.

The Car Saga Continues

So I took my car in for its transmission check today and it turns out the tranny is not the problem. It turns out my 2nd fuel injector is leaking fuel over the back of the engine and it's a miracle I haven't burst into flames at any given time on the highway. Transmission dude John tells me that he recommends I get my car towed to a shop and fixed immediately. I tell him that I have a body shop appointment tomorrow to get my wheel well worked on and he says if I drive really slow and don't let the engine heat up I should be safe to get it home. I don't drive it home....I drive it to Millenium Auto where I find out that all the seals on my Fuel Injector Rail are totally rotten and they just fall apart as soon as he touches them. Now I am screwed. Or so I think. Turns out he miraculously finds four seals that will fit my injectors puts them on and TA DA!! Problem solved...for now. If they leak again I have to take them to a Honda tech and get the official Honda Seals put on. So now my car runs a hell of a lot better due to me not missing a fuel injector anymore. But tomorrow I go in to get the body looked at and my wheel well fixed but if what the Transmission people say is true I may be in for more than that. The mechanic at Millenium told me that tons of people didn't get their Accords undercoated properly when they bought them new and they tend to rust in the main frame...which if it's happening in my car may mean I am uber-screwed none-the-less. Praying for my car to survive...and not cost me a fortune.

So Yeah...

Life is good...when life is good don't write on here cuz well there's no real news. Life marches on as it ever does and I go with the flow along with it. Hmmm news...worked on the tech-in and strike of Lisa marie Presley's gig at the Port Theatre. I never would have figured she'd be Alleah height. Ummm yeah worked the worst gig ever on the weekend I was really tired and none of my mics decided to work for me with 15 minutes to go before the show. So I called in Ace, Mike and Leon before we finally found and fixed the issue. Mike looked at the set-up and realized we should have had two techs on it instead of just one. I really wish someone else had been there to stop me from going absolutely insane.
Oh and speaking of insane my Car is going to cost me $450 in maintenance and repairs over the next two days...wooo hoooo.
Oh and this comes immediately following my resignation of my job at Thrifty's....oh boy. So I won't be quite as social as I have been for the next while due to funds and all. But in general life is a blessing and I'm enjoying every day of it.

Can't nothin' hold me down...uh uh.

Oh and Ky....you're my hero...love you buddy.

That's All One Now Our Play Is Done

Wow it's finally over. I can't say I've ever enjoyed a character quite as much as I did playing Feste. Feste made me feel like a rock star every single night; he gave me an ability to connect with the audience in a way that I've never been able to do before. I have never had so many people come up to me and tell me that I was their favourite part in the show before. It also made me more confident about persuing my Music career. To all my fellow cast members and our excellent crew all have to say is "Wow". What a seamless show from beginning to end, the professionalism was by far the best I have seen behind the scenes at a Malaspina show so far and we have set a precedent for shows to come. We have been gifted with an amazing group of actors, designers, and technicians in our program for these two years and I believe we are working our way towards leaving a lasting legacy for years to come. So from here out this year I am taking off my acting hat and putting on my techie one. Thanks everyone for sharing in the magic that was Twelfth Night. I love you all.

Top 5...

things I like about Martha in non sequential order...


1. Cool to just hang out and do nothing with. We have a very similar outlook on life so there is no real pressure to entertain or even talk. Things are just comfortable right from the get go.
2. Kick ass taste in Music.
3. Smells like Lush stuff all the time...*drools*
4. Best Kisser Ever
5. Her smile. (I know it's cliche.) But come on...

Since You All Want It.

That's right I am actually going to write an entry again. When blogger lost my entire entry anout the John Mayer show I became disheartened to say the least so speed update...

- Broke things off with Amanda (messily) :(
- Started thing up with Jill
- Went to see John Mayer & Sheryl Crow with Jill
- Broke things off with Jill (better this time)
- iPod, DigiCam, & 150 CDs stolen from my Car....argh
- Cast as "Feste" in Twelfth Night
- Writing music for said play :)
- 21st Birthday
- Started things up with Martha :)

That's right people throw in a couple crazy parties a little bit of scandal, a whol;e lot of theatre program awesomeness, several 5 AM weekend shifts at work and some awesome friends and that's it.

Love yah.

The Day The Music Died

AC/DC “Live”
B.B. KING “Take It Home”
BEN FOLDS “Ben Folds”
BEN FOLDS “Songs For Silverman”
BEN FOLDS FIVE “Rockin' The Suburbs”
BEN FOLDS FIVE “The Unauthorized Biography of Reinhold Messner”
BEN FOLDS FIVE “Whatever And Ever Amen”
BEN HARPER “Fight For Your Mind”
BEN HARPER “Welcome To The Cruel World”
BLUES BROTHERS 2000 “Original Movie Soundtrack”
BON JOVI “Slippery When Wet”
BRIGHT EYES “Digital Ash In A Digital Urn”
BRIGHT EYES “Lifted”
BROKEN SOCIAL SCENE “You Forgot It In People”
BUDDY GUY “Blues Singer”
BUDDY GUY “Slippin' In”
BUSH X “Sixteen Stone”
CAKE – “Comfort Eagle”
CAKE “Fashion Nugget”
CAKE “Motorcade of Generosity”
CAKE “Prolonging The Magic”
CAUTERIZE - “So Far From Real”
CLASH, THE “London Calling”
COLDPLAY “X&Y”
CREEDENCE CLEARWATER REVIVAL “Cosmo's Factory”
DASHBOARD CONFESSIONAL “A Mark, A Mission, A Brand, A Scar”
DASHBOARD CONFESSIONAL “MTV Unplugged v2.0”
DASHBOARD CONFESSIONAL “The Places You Have Come To Fear The Most”
DAVE MATTHEWS BAND “Crash”
DAVE MATTHEWS BAND “Everyday”
DAVE MATTHEWS BAND “Stand Up”
DAVE MATTHEWS BAND “Under The Table And Dreaming”
DEATH CAB FOR CUTIE “Transatlanticism”
DEATH CAB FOR CUTIE “You Can Play These Songs With Chords”
DEREK AND THE DOMINOES “Layla & Other Assorted Love Songs”
DUKE ROBILLARD “Explorer”
ELLIOT SMITH “XO”
ERIC CLAPTON “From The Cradle”
ERIC CLAPTON “Unplugged”
EVERLAST “Eat At Whitey's”
FOO FIGHTERS “The Colour And The Shape”
GET UP KIDS, THE “Eudora”
GET UP KIDS, THE “Guilt Show”
GET UP KIDS, THE “Something To Write Home About”
GRATEFUL DEAD “Skeletons From The Closet”
GREEN DAY “American Idiot”
GREEN DAY “Dookie”
GREEN DAY “Insomniac”
GREEN DAY “Nimrod”
GREEN DAY “Warning”
INCUBUS “A Crow Left Of The Murder”
INCUBUS “Fungus Amongus”
INCUBUS “Make Yourself”
INCUBUS “Morning View”
INCUBUS “S.C.I.E.N.C.E”
JACK JOHNSON “Brushfire Fairytales”
JAY-Z “The Black Album”
JIMI HENDRIX EXPERIENCE, THE “Axis: Bold As Love”
JIMI HENDRIX EXPERIENCE, THE “Electric Ladyland”
JIMMY EAT WORLD “Bleed American”
JIMMY EAT WORLD “Clarity”
JOE WALSH “The Smoker You Drink. The Player You Get”
JOEL PLASKETT EMERGENCY “Truthfully, Truthfully”
JOHN MAYER “AS/IS”
JOHN MAYER “Heavier Things”
JOHN MAYER “Room For Squares”
JOHNNY LANG “Long Time Coming”
JULIANA THEORY, THE “Understand This Is A Dream”
K-OS “Joyful Rebellion”
KEANE “Under The Iron Sea”
KID ROCK “Devil Without A Cause”
KILTLIFTERS, THE “Pass The Popcorn”
KINGS OF LEON “Aha Shake Heartbreak”
LINKIN PARK “Hybrid Theory”
LINKIN PARK “Meteora”
MARILYN MANSON “Antichrist Superstar”
MAROON 5 “Songs About Jane”
MARS VOLTA, THE “Frances The Mute”
MEATLOAF “Bat Out Of Hell”
MOBILE “Tomorrow Starts Today”
MUDDY WATERS “Folk Singer”
MUSE “Absolution”
NINE INCH NAILS “The Downward Spiral”
ODDS “Bedbugs”
ODDS “Nest”
OUTKAST “Stankonia
PANIC! AT THE DISCO “A Fever You Can't Sweat Out”
PEARL JAM “Pearl Jam”
PEDRO THE LION “Control”
PEDRO THE LION “Winners Never Quit”
PHISH “Farmhouse”
PHISH “Round Room”
PINK FLOYD “The Wall”
POLICE, THE “Every Breath You Take”
POSTAL SERVICE, THE “Give Up”
RADIOHEAD “OK Computer”
RAGE AGAINST THE MACHINE “Rage Against The Machine”
RED HOT CHILI PEPPERS “
ROBERT CRAY “Take Your Shoes Off”
ROBERT CRAY “Time Will Tell”
RYAN ADAMS “Demolition”
RYAN ADAMS “Gold”
RYAN ADAMS “Love Is Hell”
RYAN ADAMS & THE CARDINALS “Cold Roses”
RYAN ADAMS & THE CARDINALS “Jacksonville City Nights”
SAVES THE DAY “In Reverie”
SNOW PATROL “Eyes Open”
STEVIE RAY VAUGHAN “Couldn't Stand The Weather”
STEVIE RAY VAUGHAN “In Step”
STEVIE RAY VAUGHAN “Soul To Soul”
STEVIE RAY VAUGHAN “The Sky Is Cryin'”
STRAYLIGHT RUN “Straylight Run”
SUBLIME “Robbin' The Hood”
SUBLIME “40 oz. To Freedom”
TOOL “10,000 Days”
TREBLE CHARGER “Detox”
TREWS, THE “House Of Ill Fame”
WALLFLOWERS, THE “Bringing Down The Horse”
WALLFLOWERS, THE “Red Letter Days”
WEEZER “Maladroit”
WEEZER “pinkerton”
WEEZER “The Blue Album”
WEEZER “The Green Album”
WHISKYTOWN “Pneumonia”
WHO “Who's Next”

All Gone In One Fell Swoop *cries*

In Lieu Of Update I Give You...Comic

1984-2006

It's really hard to write about all the good stuff right now. Nate's funeral is on tuesday, and it's gonna take alot to get through it. I can't say we were ever close friends but we were team mates and I think that counts enough. It still seems weird to me that I saw him at the river mere days before his death. For those of you who don't know Nate Hughes was a Barsby Alumni, he was studying Chemical Engineering at UBC and he was tragically killed when the car he was riding in lost control on Jinglepot Rd. on September 3rd. He was running late for his ferry back to UBC and never made it to his parent's house. I can only imagine how hard this is for his family and close friends. We'll all miss you Nate Dawg.

No Matter How Cold It Gets This Winter....

I'll always have this to look forward to in the summer....

Why Should I Worry? Why Should I Care?

The countdown to school is frickin' on and I just know these last weeks are gonna drag out to no end. I didn't get my tattoo fixed today due to the fact that it hasn't completely healed yet. bummer. So September 17th is the next day we're gonna try and get this thing fixed. I submitted the design for the next one as well (sorry mom). I can at least swim for the rest of the summer so that's a bonus. I can't wait to get back in class. In other news I've started kinda seeing someone. I really like her so here's hoping this one pans out. One month tomorrow I see John Mayer!!! YAY! I'm so stoked.

Anybody know where to get a huge CD wallet in this town? went to A&B Sound and Future Shop today and couldn't find any. crazy.

Answers...

Alright I think the guessing period has all but expired on these songs...

1. California One / Youth & Beauty Brigade - The Decemberists
3. Indian Summer - Pedro The Lion
6. Blow At High Dough - The Tragically Hip
10. See You When I Get There - The Wallflowers
14. Gameover - Ozma

Bandwagon Jumper Says Guess My Lyrics

actually a bare minimum of the stuff you guys have never heard came up so you're really lucky.

Introduction:
1. Open your current playlist and put it on shuffle.
2. Write down your favorite line from each of the songs.
3. Let your friends list guess the song title and artist without looking it up anywhere.

1:

We're calling all bed wetters and ambulance chasers
Poor picker-pockets, bring 'em in
Come join the youth and beauty brigade
We're lining up the light-loafere'd
And the bored bench warmers
Castaways and cutouts, fill it up
Come join the youth and beauty brigade

2: Barracuda - Heart

You lying so low in the weeds
I bet you gonna ambush me
You'd have me down, down, down, down on my knees
Now, wouldn't you,

3:

ultra-violet rays are washing over all the boys and girls
as their moms lay tanning by the pool
oh look their dads arriving home all the children hug his neck unaware of their inheritence
all of the experts say you aught to start them young
that way they'll naturally love the taste of corporate cum

4: Steady As She Goes - The Raconteurs

Your friends have shown a kink in the single life
You've had too much to think, now you need a wife

5. Here's To The Night - Eve 6

Are you willing to be had? Are you cool with just tonight?

6.

Whoever fits her usually gets her
It was the strangest thing
How she moved so fast , moved so fast
Into that wedding ring

7. Here I Go Again - Whitesnake

Though I keep searching for an answer,
I never seem to find what I'm looking for
Oh lord, I pray
You give me strength to carry on,
cause I know what it means
To walk along the lonely street of dreams

8. Only The Good Die Young - Billy Joel

They say there's a heaven for those who will wait
Some say it's better but I say it ain't
I'd rather laugh with the sinners than cry with the saints
the Sinners are much more fun...

9. Perfect World - Billy Talent

I never got the whole story, not 'til after she left me
Baby I don't need you, well baby I don't need you
Word on the street is she fucked him, while we were playing in Cleveland
Well baby I don't need you, you're fading in my rearview

10.

I’m looking up, At the moving clouds
I’ve been down so long but I still think you might come around
So I’m making plans for when you feel better
You just might want someone more familiar
You won’t find anyone else to take you back
Now sometimes you’re an angel
But you’re usually a pain in the ass

11. Collide - Howie Day

I'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again

12. Vindicated - Dashboard Confessional

So turn up the corners of your lips
Part them and feel my finger tips
Trace the moment, fall forever
Defense is paper thin
Just one touch and I'll be in
Too deep now to ever swim against the current
So let me slip away

13. Cannonball - Damien Rice

there’s still a little bit of your taste in my mouth
there’s still a little bit of you laced with my doubt
it’s still a little hard to say what's going on
there’s still a little bit of your ghost your witness
there’s still a little bit of your face i haven't kissed
you step a little closer each day
that i can’t say "what's going on?"

14.

2P, you take my control
teach me how to rock and roll or i'll fall down and die
i bet you don't know how to find our extra life times ninety-nine
i know you tried but still we died
our game is over

15. Lithium - Nirvana

I'm so horny, but that's okay ...My will is good

Annnnnd GO!!

Pretty Much The Sexiest Thing I've Seen All Day

It's Holiday Monday. Anybody wanna hit the river with me?

To The Cowardly Anonymous Person Commenting On My Blog

Please go away. I don't need your opinions or judgements of the things I do. The decision to get a tattoo lies in my hands and no one elses. I'm sure my mother would not be pleased with my choice to get a tattoo and I didn't need to ask her opinion since that opinion is already known to me. If my Mother were to somehow sanction me for getting a tattoo it would be an extremelly shallow thing to do in the face of "unconditional love". If you are a member of my family taking a jab at me then please reveal who exactly you are so that I can know exactly who is judging me for making a choice to do something to my body. Getting a tattoo is not a shame. This tattoo is representative of my family's history and my own personal beliefs. I believe there are worse things to get tatooed to yourself than something that says "For Good, For Glory, Good Is Enough". How dare you tell me to never take my shirt off in front of her? If she truly loves me she should accept and respect the choices I have made even if she does not agree with them. I am an adult and as such have control of my own life.

EDIT: This poem just got Poem Of The Day on a site I belong to. I almost forgot I had written it it was so long ago. So here's one from the past...

Born Again Sun

by J. P. Davies

Down by the docks
fishermen throw
depleted stocks down
onto weathered cedar.

Seagulls avengingly swoop,
diving to reclaim
trinkets of their sea.
While staring sightless
into new oceans of sky
fish cry out the morning.

And all the while
a young girl skips out, back again;
Chasing a tide
that will forever identify
lost innocence and memory.

Memories will roll
ashore in orbit with years.
An eternal fog bank in which
she can swirl herself, conceal
what she has become, in swaths
of misty cherub wings.

Forever preserving a promise,
sweet singing angels for tomorrow,
she can hide and live here.

Ever upon a shore,
of life,
of pulsating breaths.
Spilling over walls of sand,
years of deposition,
she will remember these times, these days.

Born again sun,
she rides out upon
waves of eternity.

They help to carry her home.

07/22/2004

tattoos and such

I just realized that within the next few months or so over half of the second years will have at least one tattoo... I hope I didn't forget anyone.


Amber
Alleah - Inked
Geoff
Gregoire - Inked
Kylan - Inked x 3
Meghan
Lisa - Inked
Michelle - Inked
Jordan D. - Inked
James
Kaitlyn - Soon To Be Inked
Biff
Alex

Yesterday, Today and Tomorrow

So yesterday was very interesting all-around. I got called in for a 5 am shift by work and lazed my way through four hours and then went home and had some nappage on the couch. I got up and started feeling really antzy to do something so me and Matt went downtown to get some coffee. We visited Alex and then went over to Hill's Native Art to talk to Michelle. She showed us the design she's working on for her tattoo and I have to say it's going to be awesome. We went and got coffees and sweets from Perkins and then headed back for more chat time with Michelle. We ventured back home and I started to nap on the couch again.

Finally getting antzy to move again I called Kylan up and headed to Parksville to go play some video games with Ky, Jeremy, Mike, Trevor and Karah. It was cool. We played Mario soccer for Game Cube which I have to say is one of the most entertaining games I have played in a long time. I developed the enforcer role which was to never play the ball but just go around creaming all the other teams players and making it so they couldn't get near our player with the ball. It was good fun.

Umm after that we drove back to Nanaimo so Ky could return his tux to Moores which was closed due to it being Sunday. So we went to Boston Pizza and had dinner and then went and saw an utterly vacuous teen comedy called John Tucker Must Die. It was supremely shitty. The funniest parts were listening to the reactions of the twinks in the audience.

After the movie I sped home but drove right by cuz my mind was going about ten million miles an hour so I kept going and drove down to Departure Bay and watched the ferry come in it was really tranquil and gave me a chance to think about things. And I think I came to some good conclusions. I've realized that before recently I never let anybody past the walls I built up to protect me from getting hurt or being vulnerable. I think I'm really starting to appreciate those closest to me more now that I know they're not going to ditch me if I have some moments of weakness. It's really reassuring to be surrounded by people who I respect and admire. There's just one big hole missing. I'm not going to rush anything though. I really want to find somebody special. I finally think I understand exactly what love means and I'd like somebody amazing to share it with.

Today I slept in hardcore. And now I'm sitting at my computer feeling antzy again. I really wanna go swimming but nobody's online or anything so maybe I'll wait til Matt's home and drag him out.

Love you guys,

Jordan

Just Not Enough To Hang On

The sunset has faded before we ever had a chance to enjoy the light. What do you do when your best is not enough? It's like everything you put out was just washed away and you're left feeling so inadequate it pulls everything out all over again. If I had known it would have been for the last time, I would have kissed you a little longer just to remember it. One day I woke up and found that you had left me to stand here and pick up the pieces of myself that I put out for you. If you were confused then, you passed it so deftly on to me. I feel like I predicted this with the poem I wrote for you. You are the summer wind that so briefly brought happiness but now leaves me wondering what I could have done (if anything?) to make you choose me. But it's too late now. There's this wall in place of the effort it cost me to open myself up for something like this so soon.

this one is mine...

She Is The Wind

by J. P. Davies

Today she bends and squints her too-blue eyes
and guides boats across the harbour.
She slithers her fragile hand into mine
and dares me to wonder why.

I perch quietly, and knowingly slide my chin
slowly along her shoulder, kiss her neck.
Because today she will let me in
and tonight she'll come to bed.

When a new day comes she will dissapear
back into her world of glaring silences
to the places she has come to accept
as the purest stations of her life.

But in this tranquil night I watch her sleep,
in a sigh of fresh contentment
and wonder if she'll ever want to stay.
Will she ever need me too?

And in the morning when she leaves me
in the most beautiful of perfumes.
I'll lie back down and let a solitary tear
slide into the fabric of her pillow.

Because she is the wind,
that now blows across this ocean
and dances teasingly across my hands
before leaving me for brighter locales.

07/11/2006

Amazing for a grand total of about a week I was happier than I can remember being in a long time. But now there's just this space.