In Lieu Of Update I Give You...Comic

1984-2006

It's really hard to write about all the good stuff right now. Nate's funeral is on tuesday, and it's gonna take alot to get through it. I can't say we were ever close friends but we were team mates and I think that counts enough. It still seems weird to me that I saw him at the river mere days before his death. For those of you who don't know Nate Hughes was a Barsby Alumni, he was studying Chemical Engineering at UBC and he was tragically killed when the car he was riding in lost control on Jinglepot Rd. on September 3rd. He was running late for his ferry back to UBC and never made it to his parent's house. I can only imagine how hard this is for his family and close friends. We'll all miss you Nate Dawg.

No Matter How Cold It Gets This Winter....

I'll always have this to look forward to in the summer....

Why Should I Worry? Why Should I Care?

The countdown to school is frickin' on and I just know these last weeks are gonna drag out to no end. I didn't get my tattoo fixed today due to the fact that it hasn't completely healed yet. bummer. So September 17th is the next day we're gonna try and get this thing fixed. I submitted the design for the next one as well (sorry mom). I can at least swim for the rest of the summer so that's a bonus. I can't wait to get back in class. In other news I've started kinda seeing someone. I really like her so here's hoping this one pans out. One month tomorrow I see John Mayer!!! YAY! I'm so stoked.

Anybody know where to get a huge CD wallet in this town? went to A&B Sound and Future Shop today and couldn't find any. crazy.

Answers...

Alright I think the guessing period has all but expired on these songs...

1. California One / Youth & Beauty Brigade - The Decemberists
3. Indian Summer - Pedro The Lion
6. Blow At High Dough - The Tragically Hip
10. See You When I Get There - The Wallflowers
14. Gameover - Ozma

Bandwagon Jumper Says Guess My Lyrics

actually a bare minimum of the stuff you guys have never heard came up so you're really lucky.

Introduction:
1. Open your current playlist and put it on shuffle.
2. Write down your favorite line from each of the songs.
3. Let your friends list guess the song title and artist without looking it up anywhere.

1:

We're calling all bed wetters and ambulance chasers
Poor picker-pockets, bring 'em in
Come join the youth and beauty brigade
We're lining up the light-loafere'd
And the bored bench warmers
Castaways and cutouts, fill it up
Come join the youth and beauty brigade

2: Barracuda - Heart

You lying so low in the weeds
I bet you gonna ambush me
You'd have me down, down, down, down on my knees
Now, wouldn't you,

3:

ultra-violet rays are washing over all the boys and girls
as their moms lay tanning by the pool
oh look their dads arriving home all the children hug his neck unaware of their inheritence
all of the experts say you aught to start them young
that way they'll naturally love the taste of corporate cum

4: Steady As She Goes - The Raconteurs

Your friends have shown a kink in the single life
You've had too much to think, now you need a wife

5. Here's To The Night - Eve 6

Are you willing to be had? Are you cool with just tonight?

6.

Whoever fits her usually gets her
It was the strangest thing
How she moved so fast , moved so fast
Into that wedding ring

7. Here I Go Again - Whitesnake

Though I keep searching for an answer,
I never seem to find what I'm looking for
Oh lord, I pray
You give me strength to carry on,
cause I know what it means
To walk along the lonely street of dreams

8. Only The Good Die Young - Billy Joel

They say there's a heaven for those who will wait
Some say it's better but I say it ain't
I'd rather laugh with the sinners than cry with the saints
the Sinners are much more fun...

9. Perfect World - Billy Talent

I never got the whole story, not 'til after she left me
Baby I don't need you, well baby I don't need you
Word on the street is she fucked him, while we were playing in Cleveland
Well baby I don't need you, you're fading in my rearview

10.

I’m looking up, At the moving clouds
I’ve been down so long but I still think you might come around
So I’m making plans for when you feel better
You just might want someone more familiar
You won’t find anyone else to take you back
Now sometimes you’re an angel
But you’re usually a pain in the ass

11. Collide - Howie Day

I'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again

12. Vindicated - Dashboard Confessional

So turn up the corners of your lips
Part them and feel my finger tips
Trace the moment, fall forever
Defense is paper thin
Just one touch and I'll be in
Too deep now to ever swim against the current
So let me slip away

13. Cannonball - Damien Rice

there’s still a little bit of your taste in my mouth
there’s still a little bit of you laced with my doubt
it’s still a little hard to say what's going on
there’s still a little bit of your ghost your witness
there’s still a little bit of your face i haven't kissed
you step a little closer each day
that i can’t say "what's going on?"

14.

2P, you take my control
teach me how to rock and roll or i'll fall down and die
i bet you don't know how to find our extra life times ninety-nine
i know you tried but still we died
our game is over

15. Lithium - Nirvana

I'm so horny, but that's okay ...My will is good

Annnnnd GO!!

Pretty Much The Sexiest Thing I've Seen All Day

It's Holiday Monday. Anybody wanna hit the river with me?

To The Cowardly Anonymous Person Commenting On My Blog

Please go away. I don't need your opinions or judgements of the things I do. The decision to get a tattoo lies in my hands and no one elses. I'm sure my mother would not be pleased with my choice to get a tattoo and I didn't need to ask her opinion since that opinion is already known to me. If my Mother were to somehow sanction me for getting a tattoo it would be an extremelly shallow thing to do in the face of "unconditional love". If you are a member of my family taking a jab at me then please reveal who exactly you are so that I can know exactly who is judging me for making a choice to do something to my body. Getting a tattoo is not a shame. This tattoo is representative of my family's history and my own personal beliefs. I believe there are worse things to get tatooed to yourself than something that says "For Good, For Glory, Good Is Enough". How dare you tell me to never take my shirt off in front of her? If she truly loves me she should accept and respect the choices I have made even if she does not agree with them. I am an adult and as such have control of my own life.

EDIT: This poem just got Poem Of The Day on a site I belong to. I almost forgot I had written it it was so long ago. So here's one from the past...

Born Again Sun

by J. P. Davies

Down by the docks
fishermen throw
depleted stocks down
onto weathered cedar.

Seagulls avengingly swoop,
diving to reclaim
trinkets of their sea.
While staring sightless
into new oceans of sky
fish cry out the morning.

And all the while
a young girl skips out, back again;
Chasing a tide
that will forever identify
lost innocence and memory.

Memories will roll
ashore in orbit with years.
An eternal fog bank in which
she can swirl herself, conceal
what she has become, in swaths
of misty cherub wings.

Forever preserving a promise,
sweet singing angels for tomorrow,
she can hide and live here.

Ever upon a shore,
of life,
of pulsating breaths.
Spilling over walls of sand,
years of deposition,
she will remember these times, these days.

Born again sun,
she rides out upon
waves of eternity.

They help to carry her home.

07/22/2004

tattoos and such

I just realized that within the next few months or so over half of the second years will have at least one tattoo... I hope I didn't forget anyone.


Amber
Alleah - Inked
Geoff
Gregoire - Inked
Kylan - Inked x 3
Meghan
Lisa - Inked
Michelle - Inked
Jordan D. - Inked
James
Kaitlyn - Soon To Be Inked
Biff
Alex

Yesterday, Today and Tomorrow

So yesterday was very interesting all-around. I got called in for a 5 am shift by work and lazed my way through four hours and then went home and had some nappage on the couch. I got up and started feeling really antzy to do something so me and Matt went downtown to get some coffee. We visited Alex and then went over to Hill's Native Art to talk to Michelle. She showed us the design she's working on for her tattoo and I have to say it's going to be awesome. We went and got coffees and sweets from Perkins and then headed back for more chat time with Michelle. We ventured back home and I started to nap on the couch again.

Finally getting antzy to move again I called Kylan up and headed to Parksville to go play some video games with Ky, Jeremy, Mike, Trevor and Karah. It was cool. We played Mario soccer for Game Cube which I have to say is one of the most entertaining games I have played in a long time. I developed the enforcer role which was to never play the ball but just go around creaming all the other teams players and making it so they couldn't get near our player with the ball. It was good fun.

Umm after that we drove back to Nanaimo so Ky could return his tux to Moores which was closed due to it being Sunday. So we went to Boston Pizza and had dinner and then went and saw an utterly vacuous teen comedy called John Tucker Must Die. It was supremely shitty. The funniest parts were listening to the reactions of the twinks in the audience.

After the movie I sped home but drove right by cuz my mind was going about ten million miles an hour so I kept going and drove down to Departure Bay and watched the ferry come in it was really tranquil and gave me a chance to think about things. And I think I came to some good conclusions. I've realized that before recently I never let anybody past the walls I built up to protect me from getting hurt or being vulnerable. I think I'm really starting to appreciate those closest to me more now that I know they're not going to ditch me if I have some moments of weakness. It's really reassuring to be surrounded by people who I respect and admire. There's just one big hole missing. I'm not going to rush anything though. I really want to find somebody special. I finally think I understand exactly what love means and I'd like somebody amazing to share it with.

Today I slept in hardcore. And now I'm sitting at my computer feeling antzy again. I really wanna go swimming but nobody's online or anything so maybe I'll wait til Matt's home and drag him out.

Love you guys,

Jordan

Just Not Enough To Hang On

The sunset has faded before we ever had a chance to enjoy the light. What do you do when your best is not enough? It's like everything you put out was just washed away and you're left feeling so inadequate it pulls everything out all over again. If I had known it would have been for the last time, I would have kissed you a little longer just to remember it. One day I woke up and found that you had left me to stand here and pick up the pieces of myself that I put out for you. If you were confused then, you passed it so deftly on to me. I feel like I predicted this with the poem I wrote for you. You are the summer wind that so briefly brought happiness but now leaves me wondering what I could have done (if anything?) to make you choose me. But it's too late now. There's this wall in place of the effort it cost me to open myself up for something like this so soon.

this one is mine...

She Is The Wind

by J. P. Davies

Today she bends and squints her too-blue eyes
and guides boats across the harbour.
She slithers her fragile hand into mine
and dares me to wonder why.

I perch quietly, and knowingly slide my chin
slowly along her shoulder, kiss her neck.
Because today she will let me in
and tonight she'll come to bed.

When a new day comes she will dissapear
back into her world of glaring silences
to the places she has come to accept
as the purest stations of her life.

But in this tranquil night I watch her sleep,
in a sigh of fresh contentment
and wonder if she'll ever want to stay.
Will she ever need me too?

And in the morning when she leaves me
in the most beautiful of perfumes.
I'll lie back down and let a solitary tear
slide into the fabric of her pillow.

Because she is the wind,
that now blows across this ocean
and dances teasingly across my hands
before leaving me for brighter locales.

07/11/2006

Amazing for a grand total of about a week I was happier than I can remember being in a long time. But now there's just this space.

Giving Up

I know a girl
she puts the colour inside of my world
but she's just like a maze
where all of the walls all continually change

and I've done all I can
to stand on her steps with my heart in my hands

but now
I'm starting to see
maybe it's got nothing to do with me.


I finally get it.

"Hey, At Least You Didn't Get Somebody's Name"

So today I woke up and proceeded to invite Tasha out for consequetive meals depending on the time...I made it to lunch. "Breakfast" and "Brunch" are apparently non existant in some peoples vocabularies. So I went and picked her up and we headed to MGM for foodstuffs. I had my usual Eggs "Pope" but the Hash browns were just a mangled baked potato WTF? Tasha had her prerequisite French Toast and Bacon. After that we hit departure bay and Piper's lagoon for some Walk On The Ocean time. Went to Woodgrove so that Tash could sort out the $100 cancellation fee for her cell phone that she apparently shouldn't have to pay but apparently she cancelled her plan three days before her contract was up so they still made her pay the $100. shitty deal. So then I dropped her off @ home and headed home. Drove to harewood for some slurpee. Then headed home. So here I am sweltering in the heat and wondering if I would be flattered or scared if somebody got my name tattooed to them at random. I know how I feel about having the person you like get somebody else's now. Like I should just give the fuck up. Should I just give up? When you do that you don't just affect yourself you affect those around you too. I still can't believe it.

A is for age: 20
B is for Booze of choice: Jack & Coke
C is for career: Sound Technician
D is for your dog's name: Sweet!! I Have A Dog?
E is for what you use everyday: The Shower
F is for favorite song at the moment: Rooftops & Invitations - Dashboard Confessional
G is for favorite games: Mario 3
H is for hometown: New Westminster, BC
I is for instruments you play: Guitar, Saxophone, Some Drums, Voice
J is for jam or jelly you like: Tropical Triple Fruits
K is for Kids: No Babay, No babay, No babay...
L is for last kiss: Tasha
M is for most admired trait: confidence but not over-confidence
N is for the name of your crush: See L.
O is for overnight hospital stays: Once for Food Bourne Illness
P is for phobias: Being buried alive / trapped
Q is for quotes you like: "There is not one shred of evidence to support the theory that life is serious"
R is for biggest regret: 80's party. and not playing football after high school
S is for sweets of your choice: Powerbars?
T is for the time you wake up: 8:30-9
U is for underwear: Boxers
V is for vegetable you love: Tomatoes
W is for What the fuck happened to the question for W?
X is for x-rays you've had: Finger/Teeth
Y is for yummy food you make: everything I make is yummy
Z is for zodiac sign: Libra

So Far So Good

The fading of the selected letters is moving along quite nicely...

BEFORE...

NOW...

For Good, For Glory, Good Is ________

So yeah, I fucked up while checking the spelling on my tattoo. The last word has an extra "A" in it so technically the word has no meaning. So four hours after completion of my tat I find myself back in the chair getting a portion of two letters "mulched" so that the ink won't take. This hurts a hell of a lot more than the tatoo itself, exponentially so. So on August 21st I go back in to get it fixed. Lesson here kids, look very carefully and make sure all the words in your tattoo are spelled right. Otherwise you will end up with a bloody seeping wound in your body to go with your tattoo.


In other news my CD player in my car merely had a burnt out fuse so now I have tunes in the ride. sweetness. Oh and i was approved for a student loan of $10, 880.00 holy crap.

Waiting On The World To Change

So Jordan is officially mobile as of today. Went and put insurance on my car, and then picked up Tasha and headed up to Errington. Visited Ky for a bit, he was looking decidedly squirrelly and apparently was punched in both eyes by the Orthodontist. ;) Apres A-Frame, headed to Coombs where Tasha and I wandered around and ate grapes and played stickball and talked. it was nice. She was decidedly sexy today having a heart monitor strapped to her chest with lotsa wires sticking out. "Top Drawer!!" Yeah so drove back to Nanaimo while Tash slept in the passenger seat. Drpped her off at home, went to Canadian Tire and bought a rear-view mirror that actually works. Headed to my dad's place and used his heat gun and some goo-gone to scrape off the palm tree decals on my cars windows. They are no more. Installed my new mirror. I can see out the back now yay. Then headed home. All in all a pretty butt kicking day in general. I think i might go swimming. hmmm. Or maybe for a workout at mal. yeah that's more likely. Later y'all.

UPDATE: Went to the gym for a bit. My new rear-view doesn't want to stay on so I have to get more adhesive to try and make it work. Crap. Anyway, life is good. If a little confusing.

YAY!!!

Today I spent $100 and by doing so will see John Mayer in concert again. But this time from fucking FLOOR SEATS!! YEAH!!! September 22nd baby. I am so stoked.

If It Is Born In Flames Then We Should Let It Burn

I'm in a very strange place right now. All of my expectations and aspirations lately have flipped themselves around in strange ways. I should really stop setting myself up so much because when all of your plans fall through it's that much more dissapointing. I know I'm gonna be okay with this but it still sucks. Whatever, love is too complicated to try and make any sense of apparently so why the hell do I try. In other news I've started talking to Trish again which is nice. It's nice to have someone who knows you so well you don't have to explain your point of view to them they already understand. I'm pretty worried about one of my friends because they seem to be caught in the same sort of cycle of depression I was in a few years ago. I'm also concerned about another friend who is trying their best to help but is absolutely drowning in this and thats not really fair. It seems life has caught up to alot of people right now and everyone is fighting their way back to the surface. Ahhh the quarter-life crisis. Welcome to the suck.

Finish the sentence:
1. My ex is: one of the nicest people I know.
2. I am listening to: Death Cab For Cutie
3. Maybe I should: stop obsessing.
4. I love: to fall asleep so I can dream.
5. My bestfriend(s) is/are: Matt/Jay/Brennan/Ky
6. I don't understand: you.
7. I lost: my hope of this being easy.
8. People say: the dumbest things.
9. The meaning of my screen name: "She Just Might Get You Lost. And She Just Might Leave You Torn. But She Just Might Save Your Soul" Lyrics from the new Dashboard Confessional album, pretty much sums things up right now.
10. Love is: "what I got, said remember that" - Sublime
11. Somewhere, someone is: trying desperately to be strong
12. I will always try to be: the bigger man
13. Forever seems: "to be around when things begin, but never around when things end" - Ben Harper
14. I never want to: forget how you look when you sleep
15. My cell phone: has a better ringtone than Barbara's
16. When I wake up in the morning, I: wish I didn't have to get up
17. I get annoyed: when people don't respect themselves
18. Parties are: a certain way to make me feel alone in my own head
19. My Dog is: waiting for me in the future
20. Kisses are the best when: in the middle of a sentence
21. Today I might: just veg out alone
23. Tomorrow I will: work a closing shift
24. I really want: what I can't have
25. I am: alienated

Kinda Drunk...

So forgive in advance any spelling mistakes. Today I worked a closing shift and then went and got free beer at this party that Lucid records and clothing was throwing for Vice magazine...me and matt got pretty drunk all said. I'm seriously questioning the maturity of some people in my life right now. It's like they are looking through a tinted mirror that distorts everything into a shape they can accept. I'm really understanding the meaning of freindship more lately and how some people misconstrue the people they hang out with as their friends. A friend is someone understanding and accepting no matter what. A friend is somebody who will listen and care no matter what is going on otherwise. I have evaluated my "friends" and I know who will be there for me through thick and thin. Remember, a friend is someone who will always build you up. A true friend will never yell at you, or tell you that you're decisions are wrong. A true friend may ADVISE you when they think your course of action is precarious but they will never try to forcibly steer you in any direction. I think in any relationship there must be true friendship first and friendships (as well as relationships) must be free of judgement and full of support. I suggest you look hard at who you consider to be your friends and ask yourself if they truly deserve to have you as a friend. Are they fiercely loyal and would they be willing to support you no matter what you have done? If not these are not your friends; These are people paying lip service to you to fulfill some alterior motive. Your friends will accept you and everything that comes along with you including those who you chose to be close with. Do not blind yourselves with the past but take a cold hard look at the present and ask yourself "is this where I wish I could be?" if not....change your life. You have the control.