8/29/2005

Someone Else's Star

If life were like a fairy tale wouldn't we all get bored? Maybe stop trying so hard at everything. And if one perfect moment led into the next perfect time then maybe all we would have is sorrow. So maybe I can't give you the stars, you don't see how lucky we are. If the reflection's of love could dazzle your eyes so blind then your not really seeing anything at all are you. Have you stopped looking because I haven't. I still believe in you more than anything else. Jealousy was never your strong suit and it's an ill-tailored one at that. Well maybe not jealousy, perhaps just envy. And if I could stand screaming and yelling it wouldn't ring as loud as one moment of percieved silence. So if you take your eyes from the stars and look what you picked up from the ground. Maybe you'd realize just how thankful he is for what you did, and who you are. I'm sorry if I'm not what you wanted, I'm just me. The flawed goods you restored are still here deep down and they look at you the same way. Someone else isn't living your stars, your star is just living for you, and you can't see it.

8/27/2005

I'm Wrong And I'm Sorry

So this vacation turns out to be just what the Doctor ordered. I can feel the tiny muscles that hold my spine steeled and rigid beginning to relax. I'm mad because the TD Bank website is fucking me around and not letting me deposit money from my Mom. So therefore the $1600 I just dropped on a computer is hurting a bit more than it should. But it is quite the nice comp. I can't wait to get recording again. I've got a couple songs in me that need to come out but I guess they're not quite ready yet. So I'll let them stew for a while.

I really can't wait to get back in school. It's like there's been a hole in everything since I've been doing a job that requires very little brain output. Now I get to focus in on what's really important to me, and as an added bonus take courses that I'm actually interested in, amazing. I really cannot wait for The play to be done, mainly because I'm going to see Pearl Jam the next night. I'm so stoked to go see a concert again. I haven't been to a big show since I saw John Mayer with Trish over a year ago.

Well, that's about it for today,

The Narcissist requires you to take it easy.