Better Mood...Anybody know of anybody who's selling a Jeep?

So yeah, things are going okay. Jill's over hangin' out. I miss Martha alot. I wish I had a car I could take up there. Well I could take mine but I'd rather not. Umm so everyone is doing the "I like..." thing that Trish showed me a couple years ago but I don't think I'm quite up for that right now. Bought a couple of CDs today and a couple yesterday. Picked up...
1. Head Automatica - Popaganda
2. Incubus - Light Grenades
3. Joel Plaskett - LaDeDa
4. Damien Rice - 9

Wrote out my tech resume. It felt good to actually have practical experience and education and to be creating a resume to apply for jobs I actually want rather than the ones I've needed to "get by". I have been feeling very tired lately and I think it has to do with freedom. My car was the one thing that allowed me to be free. It feels like I have taken a giant step backward in my life. I miss Martha so much and I have lost the thing that allowed me to see her on a semi-regular basis. I have lost my control on my schedule and my life. I need it back. I need the freedom back.

I've decided to buy my own PA system this summer and start hiring myself out as a freelance sound guy. I need to have some control. I created a picture today that contains my dreams and wants for the future. I hung it by my bedside so that I can see it every night when I go to sleep and every morning when I wake up. I need to be reminded of where I'm going not just where I am. I love my life right now but i am not satisfied with it. I need to achieve something and I am getting the urges to just go for it.

I'm sorry mama but I'm shining only once
Gotta burn off the drama before I do too much
Cuz I'm only flaring silent trying to follow my fleeting flame
tomorrow could be violent I might never be the same

~No Apologies (I'm Sorry) - Proverbial Ride