The List of 05

five things i did for the first time this year

1. Went to the Grey Cup
2. Loved School
3. Drove Alone
4. Wrote a Play
5. Gave a Shit About Other People

five things i'm looking forward to in '06

1. working
2. Stagecraft
3. Trying out for the VI Raiders
4. The Line That’s Picked Up A Thousand Babes
5. Stage Managing again

best household additions in '05

1. My Stratocaster
2. My Computer
3. My Double Bed
4. My Mixer
5. My Condensor Mic

five things within my grasp that delight me

1. My New Leatherman
2. My Kick-ass Headphones
3. Ryan Adams CDs
4. My Thrifty’s Application
5. A working wireless router so I can do this upstairs on my comp soon.

five things i lost in '05

1. My faith in democracy
2. My sanity
3. My soul
4. Football Games
5. My fear of life

six people who really had my back this year

1. Biff
2. Geoff
3. Ashley
4. My Sister
5. My Mom
6. Trish

five things i should be doing right now instead of writing this list

1. Turning in said Thrifty’s Application
2. Cleaning my room
3. Laundry
4. Appealing my Student Loan
5. Finding out where the party’s at tomorrow

in oh-five, I:

stayed single the whole year
got your first kiss
kissed someone new
made-out for the first time
made-out in/on a car
kissed in the snow
kissed in the rain
fell in love
had your heart broken
broke someone else's heart
had a stalker
had a good relationship with someone
questioned your sexual orientation
came out of the closet
gotten pregnant
gotten someone else pregnant
had an abortion
gotten married
had a divorce
had a gay marriage
kissed someone of the same sex
dated someone you'll never forget
done something you've regretted
lost your true love
lost faith in love
kissed under mistletoe
got a promotion
got a pay raise
changed jobs
lost your job
quit your job
dated a co-worker
dated your boss
dated your boss' daughter/son
got fired from your job
got straight As
met one teacher you really like
met one teacher you really hated
found the subject you love
failed a class
cut class
skipped school
got into a fight with a classmate
did something you were proud of
discovered a new talent
gave the teachers a reason to teach
proved yourself an idiot
embarassed yourself in front of the class
fell in love with a teacher
got a lead in the school play
made a varsity team
were involved in something you'll never forget
got sent to the office
painted a picture
wrote a poem
ran a mile
listened to music you couldn't stand
double-dipped
skinny-dipped
went to a sleepover
went to camp
threw a surprise party
laughed till you cried
laughed till you peed in your pants
flirted shamelessly
visited a foreign country
visted a foreign state
cooked a disasterous meal
lost something important to you
got a gift you adore
realized something new about yourself
went on a diet
tried to gain weight
dyed your hair
came close to losing your life
someone close to you died
went to a party
drank alchohol
drank alchohol underage
did drug(s)
got drunk
got arrested
read a great book
saw a great movie
saw a movie so scary that it made you cry
saw your favorite band/artist live
saw someone famous in person
did something you want to tell everyone
enjoyed this

Christmas Countdown

So just before I fly out for Kelowna tomorrow, I thought I'd update this one more time before I go. I just realized today why I've been so disillusioned with the whole Christmas season. It's become so cliche and commercial that with all the forced sentiment I think I had lost all faith in what Christmas was supposed to be about. But today I saw a story on the news that tried so hard to be false with cheesy piano music and everything. But even with all the added in cheese and slow-motions and shit what was really there was so powerful I actually choked up. All it was was people being interviewed at an airport about who they were waiting for and how long it had been since they'd seen each other. They then filmed the people greeting each other and it has to be the most touching thing I have ever seen. It made me realize how much I can't wait to step off that plane tomorrow and give my Mom a big hug. It also made me feel bad that tomorrow I will see my mom, but Alleah will be spending the holidays without hers. I hope she's doing alright. I just hope she knows that even when we all go our seprate ways for a while all of us will be thinking about her in the days to come.

So to every one of my friends who reads this, don't take this time for granted. Think about how different things could be and how suddenly they can change. Think about your friends and family and make sure you tell them just how much they mean to you. The time we have together is so short don't let it pass you by too quickly.

So from me, to you, here's a truly sincere thank you for being a part of my life.

Merry Christmas All.

I am a Pirate King....

Man Biff cracks me up. Auditions for The Oresteia were last night, I purposely went in with some of my B rate material because I'm not that interested in even getting a part. I memorised the monologue the day before and performed it pretty badly. My song turmed out terrible because I hadn't warmed up at all. Hopefully if I do get a part it will be something small. I really wish thay hadn't split us up into groups because I really wish I could have seen everybody's monologue and songs. I saw Pam's and Lee's before the audition so at least I got to see those. Seeing the people at the production table made me kind of upset because I wanted to be the other ASM for this show and if I get cast then I can't be. Why did I let Eliza talk me into audtioning? I've done a huge role already this year and I didn't sign up for this program to act. I want to part of the crew side. I want to wear all black and stalk around in the shadows. That's what I enjoy.
On the other hand I was really proud of Ashley I thought her monologue and song went really well despite her nerves. Biffs song was hands down my favourite though. He just went up there and totally sold out. I respect him alot for not showing his frustration with the dance audition as much as I was doing. I just couldn't believe they'd expect us to memorize a two and a half minute piece of bellyh dance choreography in 20 mins. Normally at one of these auditions there's maybe a one minute peice or you learn about for different combinations and repeat them a couple times. This was crazy. I was at a loss to say the least.
Oh and I totally failed my music final. oops I thought it would be easy. Oh well from here on out it's stuff I know anyway.

Narcissist signing out.