So I've decided that blowing stuff up is awesome. Lisa, Robin, Cody, Tim and I went up a mountain and blew stuff up.
This morning we had our first production meeting for Miss Saigon. Looks like it's going to be alot of fun. The set is really cool, and i get paid by the hour to build it which will be an absolute first :) Thumbs up for awesome technical work.
If it's several miles to sundown
and your car just eats the road
carry on to the next town
try to lighten your load.
If your wheels keep spinning
finding truth in the night
then tonight could be the perfect moment
to watch yourself take flight
Could you tell me where the sky will see me next?
Could it take me to the place that I love best?
It's only several miles to somewhere but I haven't found it yet.
It's only several miles to somewhere but I haven't been there yet.
There's a very concious reason
if you awake to find me gone
I'm on an escapes to awareness
you'll find I'm not the only one.
And if it's only several miles
to a place I can call home
then the road could fade in my rear-view
while I carry on alone
Could you tell me where the sky will see me next?
Could it take me to the place that I love best?
It's only several miles to somewhere but I haven't found it yet.
It's only several miles to somewhere but I haven't been there yet.
08/12/2004
I wrote this song 3 years ago and it finally applies. I wrote it when I wasn't even a driver yet. Kinda funny. It's one of the songs that has never left my repertoire over the years because it just felt perfect when it came out. I think I'll be singing it all the way to K-town. I'll miss everybody so badly for the first few months. But we will adjust and life will return to normal as we move down our respective paths. I've never felt as at home as I have since finding what I love to do here in Nanaimo. When I moved here I had never even seen a play let alone thought about performing or backstage work. Six years later and I am a completelly different person from the 15 year old me.
I really wish human beings had the ability to evolve into super-beings. I've been watching the first season of Heroes and I love it.
My name is Jordan Davies and I want to be a super hero. There are so many attractions to the idea of extraordinary powers.
I bought a laptop. Well not really, I financed a laptop which is the modern equivalent of buying a laptop. You ever get the feeling that you're heading towards a crisis but unable to stop yourself? Like a car with no brakes. I hope everything balances out economically over the next year. I don't want to get in over my head thinking I'll be making more than I actually will. I guess I'm scared because I've never had an opportunity to be financially independant. I've always had roommates to share the bills or family members to help me out. Being totally self -reliant is an imposing step. One that I both relish and dread. This is not to say I'm unconfident with the direction I'm moving in, just that it is new and sometimes a little daunting. I can move forward through the knowledge that I feel fully prepared to be strong enough to handle whatever life throws my way and I know I have the drive required to succeed.
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Do you ever realize how much love is like a superpower? You feel bigger stronger like life is yours for the taking. I miss it. But when you begin to rely on yourself and step past needing somebody else to fulfil you, that's it's own kind of superpower. I guess what I'm trying to say is I feel strong again just as me. You can't be a real friend if you can't see the friend worth having in yourself. I think I see that person in myself again. I got caught up in myself as a character this year instead of myself as a person. I think I tried so hard to be what everybody wanted from me and what everyone expected that I stopped being what I expected. I got caught playing life as a game and thinking just because I can only know what I see from my own eyes as the truth. The truth is different for everybody. Robin said it best when he told me that all we have is perception and it is how we are perceived that is going to make the difference in every portion of our lives. I took a good look at what I thought I was and how that may be perceived and when the two didn't match up it was time for some change. Time to take a step back and look at how others look at me. How to not just appear strong and confident but to actually be it. Peception in balance with reality.
If You Leave I Won't Cry, I Won't Waste A Single Day
